cool paul

hey lovers. i don't have a whole lot to post tonight. i've been up since like, dawn... i mean, my mood is okay, but i just don't have much in the way of pictoral inventory. so i thought i couldn't go wrong with a cool screen capture of sweet paul mccartney from 'a hard day's night.' the shot is from the 'i should've known better' number, when they're in the cargo area of the train, 'adorably' horsing around and playing cards. that is the song they're doing in that scene, isn't it? paul sure looks cute, am i right? sighhh... well i hope to have more for everybody soon. i love you all. peace.

happy birthday bette davis

wow, i couldn't let this birthday go by... but i'm afraid by the time it's posted, it will be one day too late. still, i must give a cheer to the always crucial, always tough, always incredible miss bette davis. i did a little research before i posted this... and i learned something i think is very interesting. she was born in the town of lowell, massachussetts. that's not far from my house. i never knew that. she was born april 5, 1908. she died in france in 1989. if she'd lived, yesterday, she would've been 101 years old. when i went diving for a picture, i specifically wanted to get a shot i'd never seen before. and i also wanted to get a shot of her smoking. i think i lucked out with this ethereal shot of a very young bette, taking a 'film noir'-fied drag on a cig. looking at a shot like this, it seems almost impossible that some studios at the time shyed away from her; thinking she wasn't pretty enough. she was born ruth elizabeth davis. and wow, she was shorter than me! (5' 3") and, as morbid as it may sound to some... i dig what she has on her tombstone: 'she did it the hard way'

brothers

yes, as you might read in the post below, i had a pretty anxious weekend. i just couldn't seem to find my 'center,' as goofy as that sounds. i guess i've just felt discouraged, lazy, and a little bit less than pretty. so, you know what really helps at times like these...? when a girl feels like even playtime has lost its luster? you know who she can depend on to make her laugh, smile, wrestle with, joke with... to feel wanted... and perhaps most importantly... included? a girl can always turn to her brothers and cousins. as it happens, my brothers and cousins come in all guises and forms. like these fellows here... i have always been able to depend on them to be there for me. they always come over when i call them, and they're always in the mood to play. and more than one of them is 'kiss cute.' so yes, its at least one part pure fantasy... i realize that. i'm not that crazy. but the fact is, these lads have always been able to trigger very real chemicals in my brain that impart a sense of joy, peace, jubilance, inclusion, and peace. those chemicals aren't on tv... they're not on a vynil record, cd, or movie screen... these lads, my loyal brothers and cousins, have very often been the best medicine. so cheers to all of them... i love them all. i wouldn't have become ME withouth them. (and i love the rare shot... i've never seen it before... from left to right, we've got terrygilliam, neil innes, eric idle, and sigh... my love, terry jones.)

i gotta get my head together...!

oooh, girlfriend! i've been feeling anxious all day... much like prison-bound queen 'molina' in 'kiss of the spider woman,' i feel like i've got to get my head together, you know? like, honey...its like i woke up in my car, fully dressed in club clothes, (clothes i didn't have any memory of putting on...! ) hey, why did i fall asleep in my car, you might ask? ohhh, honey, don't i wish i knew! yes, life is a lot like that, sometimes. you just wake up, look around yourself, you look at your surroundings; you're thousands of miles from your hometown, and you can't seem to grasp how you got there. i guess i'm making it sound bleaker than it is. actually, my mood is pretty even and cool... its just that (sigh) ...sometimes the enormity of real life just seems to swirl around me like an over-hyped, clunky, garish disney ride, and i can't even remember lining up to get ON...! so, what's a girl to do at times like these? you gotta wash those bad vibes right outta your hair, and wrap up all that moist clarity in a scarlet towel. then, you grab your nearest oriental-themed robe, put on jussst enough eye make-up, and then, when all is quiet, you put on some of your favorite sounds, crack open an ice cream sandwich, and try, try, try to 'get your head together.' you know ...by yourself. so good luck, girls... molina and i know how you feel. (click to enlarge... he enlarges beautifully. its a great shot.)